I feel the need to weep today, to relieve my chest pain. I noticed that this is the third Monday I felt this.. I told him about it and he did not respond, as always. I can't start a talk with him again for the fear of being ridiculed once more as childish, immature, crazy and being the problem. I don't know how long can I go on, given our situation, I can't do anything and I avoid him as much as I can to spare me of more pain. For almost a year now he comes home after midnight or it is morning already. At times he doesn't also come home.. Since January this year Liesl and I are staying at my parents house from Friday night until Sunday morning or afternoon. I don't know how he feels about this but I think this is great for all of us, he can do what he wants and we can also choose to spend time with people who cares for me and Liesl. For me the point is that he can choose to spend more time with Liesl, and he just have to tell me.. All I can do now is just be patient and really persevere. I know that one day the truth will all come out and I just have to believe..
I also have to decide TODAY to start discerning on what do I really want to happen in my life, should I stay and love him or should I just leave? It will be all up to me... or else I might end up like this...oh well I've been through a lot and I don't think it is right to give up now...
Oh well I've been through a lot and I don't think it is right to give up now... Ü
